You Need Some Chaos In Your Soul

By Evan Sanders

You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star - Nietzsche

"Go to the deepest darkest place you can allow yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?"

Yes, I saw that little light. For years, I thought that light was something by the name of resilience. What I really didn't know was that the light was actually joy. How could joy exist in this extraordinarily dark moment? How could joy be present in this frightful and awful time?

I remember how it felt during that moment. Everything was pitch black. The darkest black you could even imagine. If you have ever seen a black table that has been lacquered several thousand times, the depths seem to be unending. This situation and time in my life was this sort of black and it was as thick is molasses.

However, there somehow was light. The only real issue was, I wasn't trying to find it.

It's not going to be easy for me to return to this place. There are a considerable number of things that I have buried deep so absolutely no one could ever find them. Thing is, I knew they were there. They have been there all the time. I have been so afraid to let them bubble up that I've basically run from my past straight into the future and have completely forgotten about the present. That is no way to live life. That is not how my life will be lived from this time on.

This place, while dark, can be illuminated. Like all dark places, bring a bright enough lantern into it and you can start to see things as they are and not just how your shocked mind has translated them to be. So I am bringing that light in.

Into the depths we go.

About the Author:

Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement, a website dedicated to bringing the best quotes, motivational content on the web, and blogs all to one place. Going through an interesting time in your life and need a good laugh? Dive into these funny life quotes for some awesome perspective.